Paul Yu

2024/1/16 Tuesday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #48

• Gotta buy a ticket to 서울 (Seoul, Korea). Maybe April.
• I should also buy a MacBook so I can make videos in Korea.
• Just thinking about making videos in Korea is a hassle.

2024/1/13 Saturday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #47

• Mind is cluttered with whether it’s going well or not with a girl. This is why I don't like online dating or dating in general. Not just sucking up time bandwidth but also mental bandwidth as well.
• Before online dating I was just focused on my books and improving myself and what to share on my videos. Now I'm more scatterbrained.
• I feel like I could do/be more. This online dating is holding me back. Then again I don't think it's a bad thing to talk to and meet women. I'll just try it for a month and then stop.
• After a month I think it's time to focus on myself again and maybe try again when I'm making money from YouTube.

2024/1/12 Friday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #46

• I started online dating. Funny how quickly girls’ hearts can turn around. But that’s okay. I was fine before meeting any girls and I’ll be fine after rejection. I’ll let go of all expectations and negativity.
• I want to break free, not hold on to feelings. I really want to be free, unblocked. (Finished reading Letting Go last night)
• I need to calendar every day in the morning or whenever, time block/schedule the day. Calendar is key to reaching my goals, although yesterday went well even though I did not use a calendar.

2024/1/10 Wednesday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #44

• Yesterday I completed what I set out on my calendar although I didn't plan the whole day.
• I should definitely plan my day today again. The calendar worked yesterday.
• Should I do online dating today, that is a question. It'll be a massive time suck, which sucks. I guess the only way to find out is to try it. I can always stop at any time.

2024/1/9 Tuesday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #43

• Today I'm going to plan out my whole day on my calendar. We'll see how well I follow it.
• Niels, my accountability partner, limits himself to 1 hour of entertainment per day.
• I need to get my workout in the morning.
• I'll also try to hang on the bar for as long as I can 3-5 times per day. It’s good for your shoulders and improves posture.
• I can always use music to boost my mood at any time.
• Let's focus on getting things done today, my priorities will be workout, walk, flute.

2024/1/4 Thursday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #40

• Robert Greene posted a YouTube video called How To Find Your Perfect Partner. Here are notes I took:
  • They must be able to take criticism. Look below their personality (mask). You can't be in a relationship where they explode every time you criticize them. If they're hyper-sensitive, you can't tell them how you truly feel.
  • Could I talk to them about subjects that interest me?
  • Could they surprise me or have I heard everything in two days?
  • Do we share a similar sense of humour? (Really important to be able to laugh at the same things.)
  • Do they like animals? (Because I do.)
• I don't know how to describe my humour. I laugh at fucked up dark stuff as well as lighthearted stuff and cute animals.

2024/1/3 Wednesday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #39

• Thinking about doing online dating again but I need to be specific about the type of girl I'm looking for.
• Looking for someone who knows how to enjoy spending time by herself and doesn't need anyone to have a good time.
• Is that polarizing enough? I think it does capture the essence of someone I'm looking for. That kind of person should be non-needy because she knows how to be happy by herself. Someone like me, in that regard.

2024/1/2 Tuesday

Notes from my stream of consciousness writing #38

• Today I will try and get back into a good routine. Hit all my targets. Read, flute, walk, work out, make a video. That's five things in a day. That's a lot.
• I'm also thinking about doing online dating again.
• I have a good feeling about this year. It's already been shaping up to be a good end of 2023 thanks to friends from Part-Time YouTuber Academy (PTYA) and me posting on YouTube every day and making a new friend, Eric. It's a new track in my songs of life.
• I have a loyal fan base who watch me daily on YouTube. It's only a matter of time before I monetize and "succeed".